Update
Haven’t written anything on here for a long ass time. Basically I go to the sickest music school ever and it’s amazing. Getting really good grades and working harder than I have ever worked in my entire life. I have a super awesome girlfriend nowadays who loves monkeys and pizza. Life is good.
behind the scenes everything fucking sucks
I was dreading that phone call. It was from a mutual fried. The warm cell phone pressed against my ear.
The spicy chicken wings were hard to swallow while we discussed it in person.
The framed pictures at home reminding me of her. It doesn’t matter anymore.
Getting my mind off it. Hanging out with close friends watching the Frisbee gliding in the air.
The most hateful Facebook message ever written. I click send. The end.
mutemath’s stuff translates sooooo well live. I want to see them so bad.
I need a break from going to shows. seriously. a month or two off would be nice.
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From the beginning I knew I was different.
I embraced it, but you didn’t.
Your normal life, 9-5, it’s just not for me.
I need to feel alive!
I won’t fall like the rest of them, they’ve come and gone with the wind.
I hear the doubt in the back of your mind but still I’ll see this through to the end.
Maybe if you paid more attention, asked more questions and actually listened you would see this is not just a dream, but a path I’ve chosen that means everything to me.
Don’t you see the minds that have changed?
Don’t you see the lives that have been saved?
Don’t you care to see the difference I’ve made?
Listen closely, the highways call my name.
Don’t you see this is my everything?
It may not seem right to you and you might not approve but it’s real.
This is the only thing that makes me feel.
What more do I have to do to finally prove myself to you?
What is it that you need to see to finally believe this is who I’m supposed to be?
Most days I feel like your punching bag, but I will never let it hold me back.
I just wish for once you knew how it felt to be brought down lower than everything else.
Don’t you care to see the difference I’ve made?
Listen closely, the highways call my name.
Don’t you see this is my everything?
It may not seem right to you and you might not approve but it’s real.
This is the only thing that makes me feel.
This is who I am!
This is my life, I come alive in the lights!
I come alive in the lights.
What will be written on your tombstone?
You sat behind a desk.
You had no backbone.
What will be written on your tombstone?
You sold your soul, grew old alone.
Would you prefer that I become a lifeless, hollow shell such as yourself?
Would you prefer that I give up my dreams and lose all hope just like everyone else?
Don’t you see the lives that have been saved?
Listen closely, the highways call my name.
Don’t you see this is my everything?
It may not seem right to you and you might not approve but it’s real.
This is the only thing that makes me feel.
